Tides of Sanity

 The tides of the illness pull me back

 as I am moving towards the shoreline of recovery


Gripping me with its invisible force

pulling me deep into a whirlpool of confusion


I cannot escape this dark blue ocean that consumes my sanity


Paddling faster

I try to ignore the symptoms worsening in the dark choppy seas


I cannot see

due to the murky waters of distortion


Exhausted from the waves of emotions

tossing me through delusions under grey overcast skies

that provoke a rip tide

churning guilt in my stomach over incidents that never happened


The relentless current

disturbs the progress I have made on my journey

to get out of this deep blue abyss


Overwhelmed by the drag of the undertow

I burn out from the struggle


 Deciding to take care of myself in the swell

 while I am afloat on a piece of driftwood

 keeping the land of recovery in sight


Copyright © Richard Bell 4th December 2016